I am not feeling good at all today… right from the moment i woke up…
Its empty… not a single word i have spoken since morning… except the thank you to the bus driver… and a good morning to lady at the reception in the office…
Looked at the amount of work… pretty neat it is… and will keep me occupied for a long time for sure…
Tried calling home… did not get through… tried calling a friend… did not get through either…
I guess I will start talking to myself soon 😀
Or better… come back to the blog… Being alone and liking it and not liking it and rest, have been major contriutors to me writing on the blog for over 3 years now… and looks like its going to stay this way for a while…
Abhishek left for India yesterday… it was kinda strange to drop him at the airport… and he sms’ed he has reached just fine… so cewl… he is not going to like a lot of things there… but i hope he can find a lot of reasons to like India too… After a while, the comfort, the discipline everything makes life a li’il too easy in firangland… and thats when, if you are back in India… a lot of things suddenly look strange, and irritating… i have felt that myself, however I have been lucky to also see a gradual change in how things have been back home… and i am glad they are changing…
A few days back i got into an interesting conversation with a friend, about how friends happen… is it an automatic process? or just a function of time? and how do you loose people? is that an automatic process again? or just a function of time?
there is no specific answer to this question, I guess… when you start knowing someone, there is a certain need of an extra effort to let the person know that (s)he is wanted and there is something that can be looked forward too.. most of us intelligent people would agree that one should know this already and thats maybe why a walk towards friendship started, however I tend to disagree with that a li’il and believe that nothing is going to be mine without an effort… life is not automatic, it has gears…
Now I might be cruising at a steady speed after a while, but still to start with, i need to carefully select the amount of acceleration, the clutch, the gear level, the rpm everything… otherwise, its going to stop… a few patient ones would try again… and again… and after a while a few of us might just give up… The interesting thing is that in a day, we have to deal with many life’s such geared mechanics… the getting ready for the office, the finishing the deadlines at work, calling or writing to a few people other than work, finding out time to do something that cheers you up… everything needs an effort.. but i guess EVERYTHING does need an effort…
Pretty long post eh…
I am feeling better now… let me go grab something to eat for myself…
