End of a generation!
My favorite model, one of my favorite people, and someone who would talk to me at length is no more! My nani passed away on the 12th of January!
That also means that I do not have any more grandparents! I remember when I was a kid, and used to talk to other kids who did not have any grandparents, I was both happy that I still had mine, and sad that I would have to see them go! This thought, for some reason, has been there since a very long time!
Nana-Nani did well in their lives even though they came from very poor families from a village… Their children are doing well for themselves and their grandchildren are on their way to good lives! They played an important role when I was a kid too… I don’t exactly remember but they practically raised me when I was a baby!
Yesterday was her funeral and thankfully everyone there was sensitive to the fact that it was not really a moment to keep crying about! It was a moment to be thankful that she lived a very long life, and was not really dependent on anyone for most of it! She lived well, and left a family that is emotionally very strong!
I could not cry for some reason, but I kept wondering and thinking throughout the last couple of days! Preparing myself for future when similar things are going to happen and hoping that whatever time someone is living with us, they live peacefully and happy!
I also managed to visit our house in the village which brought back so many childhood memories that its overwhelming just to think about them!
I am going to miss the batasha-tulsi prasad that Nani used to give me when I was a kid! I am going to miss you Nani! and I am going to miss shouting out loud Naaaniiiii whenever I used to come see you!
Stay happy wherever you are! I love you!
True! A healthy (long) life in which you have given enough for someone to remember you for a while! That’s more or less about it I guess!
I don’t know what to say just that I happen to connect with what you’ve written. I’ve never seen my grandparents from my father’s side and being the 6th daugther in the family, and the 3rd daughter of my parents’, I wasn’t bothered with much (and I am not complaining).
Now only my Amma (nani) remains and the kind of love she showers upon me makes up for more than all of them. I cannot imagine a house without her.
The good part is that whe lived a long healthy life and that’s what it boild down to I guess..
Prashant, loved ones never go away … They are on the same train as us, just in a different compartment as Paulo Coelho says. Wait for the signals to let you know and you will find them. It happened to me when dad passed away and it is uncanny. Take care. You look like your Naani – so she is perpetual 🙂
I agree about the different compartment concept! totally!
As far as Nani is concerned, I am sure she is around somewhere… and I would be able to feel her presence and blessings too!
Thank you Ma’am!