For about 2 weeks, I have been thinking of writing why I had a series of unsuccessful relationships in my past, and why I still know how to MESS things up BIG time and why I think I am a misfit when it comes to relationships :DJust that I have not been able to gather enough courage to go public with that amount of truth…

I should start an anonymous blog !!! or steal someone’s diary and write what I want to in there… or hack someone’s account and post it in their name !!!

what else can i do?

Write it on a wall in UK 😀 when no one is watching… Graffiti… with the crazy people I know here, it might just sell for millions…

Make a painting out of my thoughts… again worth some greenies…

Umm… take pictures and say what i want to say in code… Naah… I make an attempt to take happy pictures or make them look encouraging.. with some exceptions of course !!!

What else?

Talk to someone about it? I did… with three friends…

One took a split second to agree to the fact that I suck !!!

the other gave me a lot of gyan and tried to pep me up, and partially agreed…

and the third, made fun of me and applauded at the honest confession !!!

For some reason, I am not feeling too bad about it… there are good things about me, there are bad ones too… Not being able to handle people I love is one of the BADDEST ones !!!

Why am i writing about it right now?

Valid point…

And I am doing it ,

Because I think i should take that thought of thinking about writing about thinking about why I suck should be out of my system…

And because I have been carrying this thought for a long time… years maybe !!! It needs to go out of my system… it need a body wash that can clean things from inside…

Or maybe I just need to eat at a dhaba, have chai at a road side stall, drive the entire night, have a few paranthas at murthal, honk the horn when i feel like, have a few golgappas till my eyes and nose start running, flip through the useless TV channels, etc etc…

Ok… so two things now…

1. No Gyan please 🙂 take this post into your stride and humor 🙂

2. Read the previous post and help me out !!! not with Fishing Rods and instructions on how to fish, but with some FISH 🙂