How many times in a day do you play this?
Many times?
Sometimes?
Never did?
Have seen people do it?

Anyway, we, in the layman terms, call this game “Let’s jump to a conclusion”

Rules of this game:

• Whenever the person in front of you says something, you hear the complete sentence patiently
• Once the speaking is over, you think in your mind “which means”
• And then Jump “to a conclusion”
• Now either stick to the thought that you have reached or
• Ask the other person about the truth and ruin the entire game…

Here are a few examples…

Rakesh: I am not really feeling like doing anything today…
Rampal: “which means” that you are feeling bad about something?
Rakesh: No buddy, there is nothing specific…
Rampal: “which means” you do not want to tell me OR “which means” you do not consider me a good friend of yours anymore” or “which means” that you are doing something that I should not know about “which means” I have to know about it someway or the other “which means” that I got to make some effort to investigate everything…

Nidhi: Rahul dumped me today
Nisha: “which means” he is available now | “which means” I can ask him out |
”which means” nidhi must’ve been a bitch to him | “which means” Rahul is such a bastard | “Which means” they did not have a good sex life | “which means” I have to dump Rakesh if I want to ask Rahul out and more “which means” and more “which means”…

Mom: How is life in the office these days? Do you feel good working?
Son: “which means” she is thinking of getting me married | “which means” she has already thought of getting me married to Sharma’s auntie’s geeky daughter | “which means” my life is ruined

And I do not even remember how many other innings of the game I remember…

“Which means” I have bad memory? Eh!!! 😀

But then on a serious note, I do not really support this game… But for some reason I see most of us around are a part of the fan following for this game…

What about you?

Excerpts from my conversation with Bindiya yesterday evening….

Bindiya: ya right!
so wat will ur next blog will be on..?
what r u planning to blog on?
me: umm..
I wanted to write about how I like women… and why I can be physical without getting too emotional about it..
par I did not get enough words to write…
Bindiya: but u can actually get physical without being emotional with a person?
me: without getting too emotional is what I said…
I do not treat sex as a big deal….
not that I can get physical with anyone.. but I think it’s an overrated topic
Bindiya: okay…..thtz fine but does tht mean u treat it too casually??
me: no
I understand the importance of getting physical in people’s life… and give it due respect..
but if expected to treat being physical as some kind of commitment is something that I cannot do…
Bindiya: yeah I understand tht – but then I think u get physical with people with you are committed too and not everyone. atleast I wud.
as for commitment. a commitment is a commitment.
me: we think differently
Bindiya: spiritual, emotional, physical – are all aspects of it.
me: true..
Bindiya: but I think one needs to be committed to experience each of these.
me: in agreement with your thoughts.. but I think differently
🙂
Bindiya: ya to each his own….but I didn’t quiet get ur stand.
explain again…
me: which is fine… you do not have to understand everything that I say na…
or agree to them
Bindiya: but I want to understand wat I can..
me: fair enough..
Bindiya: agreeing with it or disagreeing is another matter.
me: dekho… while I understand that emotions lead to physical contact…
the visa versa is not correct…
Bindiya: hmmm…
sahi hain!
me: I might like someone physically without any emotions…
Bindiya: possible..
yep.
me: infact that’s what the looks matter thingie is all about
Bindiya: agree..
me: you check the physical aspect of a person..
so all I am saying is that to be involved physically with someone, I do not need to be emotionally dependent on the person…
it’s not as casual as having coffee together..
Bindiya: almost..
me: but I do not take it too seriously to influence life either..
stuff like I have to be committed, and only then we will kiss is something that I just do not understand…
Bindiya: yeah.. right! many people dont.
me: there are physical needs of a person as well…
and there can be times when they are more important then the emotional ones
I do not have any emotional needs… personally I do not need any emotional support from any one person…
Bindiya: so to fulfill them in the absence of a relationship one can explore them in a non-committal basis is wat u r saying. ok!
me: right
Bindiya: yeah we have different thoughts on this. but ya right I understood ur take on it.
me: cewl…
Bindiya: but tell me, even in case of wat ur saying – doesn’t one require a minimum level of comfort zone with the person with whom s/he is trying to get intimate with??
me: totally
without comfort you cannot even hold a finger.. forget about a kiss !!!
Bindiya: it can’t just be anybody ‘n everybody!
me: I do not even look at women I do not think I can talk to..
Bindiya: but wat u wrote sounded more like a desperate attempt to meet physical needs.
me: if I can talk, then I can kiss…
if I cannot talk.. let the chick go to hell, even if she is a bomb
Bindiya: if thtz the case, then there sure is a relation which is the basis of the intimacy..
me: there is…
it does not necessarily translate into emotional dependency na..
or does not mean you become a couple..
Bindiya: nothing does, ‘n then everything is.
dont u think?
intimacy with a person be it physical or emotional or mental brings in a level of dependency – not negative. but it does!
instead of ‘dependency’ – lets use the phrase support or ‘looking up to’ someone..
me: hmm….
agree here…
par a kiss, does not mean you gotta be in an affair..
Bindiya: absolutely..
but in somkinda relation..
🙂
me: and I know women who want to be kissed and make out.. but the condition is that you commit to being in a relationship
desperation to control hoti nai hai… lekin pehle relationship chahiye..
Bindiya: a relationship cannot be conditional.
hehehe…u r crude!
me: will agree to this too…
yes, I am..
mujhe sugarcoat nai hote words…
jo hai so hai
Bindiya: make it – very crude 😛
me: 😀
the unfortunate truth is that most of the relationships are conditional
it’s a give and take situation..
and that is why most of them do not work out..
guy get into it thinking they like the chick… and will get physical satisfaction out of it…
And gals get into it thinking they like the hunk and will get emotional satisfaction out of it…
Thode time baad satisfaction levels mein hota hai clash…
And u-turn
This might be too wide a generalization; however I have seen this happening…
Bindiya: par hero jo tum kah rahe ho – uska nichod mujhe yeh lagta hain ki physics, chemistry maths r all momentary needs with people whom we have a link with. sometimes they graduate to a relationship, sometimes they don’t…
me: sahi bola toone ladki
samajhdaar hai tu
Bindiya: but in case of existing relationships/affairs, divergent physical emotional needs lead to fights and separation

may be continued…

When was the last time you felt like a kid… all excited, happy, jumping with joy, shouting with excitement, not really caring for what the world thinks about you, and not really aware of what is happening outside your own world?

Do you remember?

If someone had asked me this question before last Saturday, I would not have an answer… but today I have an answer… I was a kid this Saturday… 4th of November’2006… here is what happened…

I missed out on the Photography meet in the morning… no camera, myself needed at home, work to be done… multiple issues kept me away… and Pinks aka Priyanka suggested that we should not miss the last function in the “Phool Walon Ki Sair”… it made a lot of sense… I mean so many years in Delhi and I have not even been a witness to Delhi’s one of the best functions… bad bad…

I thought it was just perfect… I missed out on the morning show… lets check out the evening then… picked up Anjali badi Manjali aka Booboo Singh from Noida more around 1630 hours and rushed to Qutub Minar… Pinks and Deepsie were already in the Qutub taking pictures…A quick round of helloes… and Anjie’s and Priyanka’s introduction to each other… My introduction to the D70S Priyanka was carrying… and we were ON!!! Pictures, talking, fun, laughter… and trust me this was just the beginning of an evening I will remember for a long time!!!

We moved out of the Qutub in a while and then asked our way to the JahazMahal, Mehrauli… where the main function was supposed to be… decided to leave my car behind and take only one car to the function… finding our way was not too difficult… When we reached there the function had not begun and people were still settling down… we did not have any passes which meant that we could not get inside the audience area… which inturn meant that we were to stand on the other side of the road and enjoy the proceedings… which we did… and to keep us company were Gupta Caterers from Chandni Chawk… YES!!! Food from the walled city… Chaat, Golgappe, Tikki, Kulfi… yes ISHTIK Kulfi and mango Kulfi… with that some pictures… some laughter… some good moments in the camera…

We then decided to move from there, and go to a local MELA… Priyanka was already kinda scared of the fact that she was supposed to sit on the Giant Wheel, and I was super happy to know that she was scared… its fun to be with someone who is scared of Rides in a park 😀 We were quick to take the tickets and force the chick to take a seat… and her reactions, the screams, the expressions were more then a picture or a camera or any words can describe… totall funnn!!!!

Next was a ride which was kinda strange… it was a big platform which would rotate and then had smaller seats for two in 4 which would rotate freely other then the platform… I cannot even tell you how interesting and exciting this was… Deepak almost got killed because of Anjie baby sitting next to him: D and we screamed out lungs out in this ride!!! When it finished, I had a headache and a stomach ache and a throat ache thanks to the spinning, and the screaming… but it was FUNN too!!!

Our next ride was the Columbus!!! Bigger then the biggest I had sat on… and the rest of the three now totally in the mood wanted to sit on the extreme end seats… which they did… and it was funnnnnnnnn again… laughter, screams, hair flowing around… it was fun to see how Priyanka’s long hair would all go at the back when we were going down on that ship… and how they covered her face otherwise…

We saw this Maut Ka Kuan… the Well of Death where there were Ladies in Men: D and then we saw these chicks dancing on a stage… all of them doing a different dance step and trying to be sexy… trust me TRYING to be sexy!!!

Also there was a magic show!!! And then the two girls tried their hands on shooting the balloons… I am not very sure they were able to aim right or not… but then looking at all the guys around them trying to see how they perform with shooting was great… looks like that these two were the only hott chicks in the entire fair area !!! And we two hunks were lucky to be with them: D

And then we went to this photo studio… it was kinda sad to find out that these guys did not have a car and an airplane where we could click a fotu!!! But then they allowed to get inside the studio and click some gooood shots: D

And this is how the mela came to an end!!! Fantastic evening this was… and we all came out tired of laughing and screaming and enjoying…

Back to Qutub Minar only to realize that the car was locked in the parking and we had to go the Police Station to get a slip to get the car out… Mehrauli Police Station which was about a km away is where we went and the people there were more then helpful in sending someone with us to get the car…

Our next pit stop was Dilli Haat… good Chinese food from the Nagaland stall… and beer… ya ya… fruit beer!!! And then everyone suddenly had the urge to have a drink or two… a small discussion on the pubs around… and we reached a consensus that DV8 is where we were going… quickly reached there from Dilli Haat.. The roads were pretty empty at that hour… and had our share of drinks… and more fun and more laughter… and some damn good music… and it was pure fun to see Angie HIGH!!! 😀

A walk back the parking lot at 0030 hrs in the night in CP is something that I would love to do any day… rather any night ? quick ta tus, and bye byes and hugs and we moved in our directions…

Only to meet again and have our share of happiness from the lives we touch!!!

Things/people/actions/situations which catch/grab/demand my attention…

1. Dirty Shoes…
2. Girls whose cleavage shows and is a delight to watch…
3. The too loud and gaudy belt buckles…
4. Corporate Politics… people trying to use someone else’s work for their numbers…
5. Times when I know when my friend is in trouble, and is not sharing the thought or the situation…
6. Females with unshaved arms or legs that show…
7. Thick wallets… full of cards and cards and more cards… visiting… debit…credit…discount.. cards and more cards…

8. Cars with the tinted dark black front windscreens…
9. Maruti 800s with alloy wheels…
10. Panty Lines under tight trousers… Someone please file a case against such women!!!!
11. Guys who just can’t take their eyes off breasts…
12. People who do not look at me in the eye while talking to me…
13. A situation where the girl has amazing assets and I should continue talking to her without looking at them :(…
14. Guys and Gals who wear low cut jeans… I am not sure what do they get out of showing off the undergarments!!! Do you know?
15. Politicians who lie… are there any who do not fit into this criteria?
16. Too much affection… it’s like having sweets the entire day… I like them, but I still cannot take too much of it…
17. Guilt of not being sensitive enough at times… But if I am sensitive, then I am calling for more dependence, and phew… trouble as well at times…
18. People talking irrationally about relationships, even after being in and out of one…
19. People trying to not use the actual words when they want to know about someone’s sexual experiences… the expressions… the replacement words and phrases…
20. Bad Keyboards in cyber cafes…
21. People spitting on the road after opening the doors of cars…
22. People who use high beams… as if they are focusing on their relatives dancing nude on the high road side platforms…
23. Incorrect statements made with confidence…
24. Men talking on the phone while peeing… argh!!!
25. Mandira Bedi/Karishma Kapoor/Kareen Kapoor…. They should be asked to get out of this planet…
26. Lack of ethics on the road in India…
27. Lack of ownership for the lane/street/sector/town/city/state/country in India…
28. Back biters…phew… some of them should be killed…
29. Mobile Phones ringing when you are making out…
30. Availability of mobile network at places where you want to be alone…
31. Expectations of replying to forwarded SMSs…
32. My inability to remember dates… 🙁 thankfully a lot of people are kinda fine with it now…
33. My lack of love for books… I read a lot about my line of business and my work… books and things which are pages and pages in length… but other books… phew 🙁
34. My comfort with things going wrong at times… not that I do not do anything about them, but lately I have accepted that things would go WRONG when they have to…
35. Different names of Sanitary Napkins that girls use… they would not really refer to it by the actual term, but use a replacement…
36. People who would sit in a restaurant and loudly ask for napkins… well a paper tissue would be a better term….or what I use… “Haath Pochne wala Kagaj”…
37. People smoking and acknowledging that Smoking is bad for health, their and others at the same time…
38. The love for Porn and the lack of acknowledgment of the same….
39. Girls who claim about not been an audience to a porn movie… and girls who have actually not seen one…
40. People who think that you can only love lovers… and as soon as you are affectionate with a person of the opposite sex, would link you to them and call you a couple…
41. People who have dirty feet…
42. Red shoes… Yellow shoes… Shoes with loud heels…
43. People scratching their butts, crotch while moving in a public place…
44. My tummy 🙁
45. People who claim to be good speakers and do not know how to answer questions…
46. My lack of vocabulary and inability to understand long sentences or heavy words…
47. My wondering what is it that girls look at when they check out guys?
48. People who would keep cribbing and not take care of things to resolve the issues.
49. NGOs that focus on teaching the underprivileged but not really trying to stop the mass production of these underprivileged… I mean you can teach someone till 5th or 6th but then WHAT?
50. The amount of educated illiterates present in this world today…

Some of the above itches, I just cannot scratch… Some, I try… but my hands cannot reach them… and some I am scratching while I am writing this!!!

There are many more…but then I guess for today, I am good with sharing these Itches… any lotions suggested???

Richa wants me to share 10 things which most of the people do not know about me on my blog….My first reaction was is she out of her mind or what 😛 but then keeping in mind the kind of darling she is to me… I have to do what she says… here we go …

#1…
I got lost thrice when we used to stay in Bhogal… my mom all the three times managed to find me… I guess wandering off to the unknown territory has always been with me 🙂

Wondering what would have happened to me if she had not found me… scary!!!

#2…
I used to come first in my classwhen I was a kid… Nursery, KG, First… and I used to get a trophy every time… in second, when my final exam’s result was out, I did not bother to check it and went straight to my class teacher and asked for my trophy… she did not have a trophy for me and asked me to talk to mom… who then told me that I came second and not first… I still remember crying like hell, not because I was second, but because I did not get the trophy….

#3…
I could not make any good friends when I was in school… infact I do not even know where most of the people from school are today…

#4…
I used to be shit scared of Ghosts… There were times when I had to go the terrace in our previous house to pick up clothes and all… and that is when I used to sing loudly in the stairs so that if there were any ghosts on the terrace they would know I am coming and go away….

#5…
I have always wanted to keep long hair… but have been able to manage it… It gets too messy… and I quickly revert back to my short sweet haircut…

#6…
If I had to choose between making out and sex, I would choose Making out…

#7…
I do not like girls who cannot carry their clothes properly… there are so many of them out there who do not know what kinda bra they should be wearing, or should they even wear the tight fit trousers or not… yuck !!!

#8…
Smartness is a turn on for me… someone looking hott would for sure grab attention but if I cannot communicate with her, she is as good as a nice looking paper weight….

#9…
I have always wanted to get into an affair with a woman in her mid 30s… I think that is the age when women are the sexiest !!! As a matter of fact, I have always got along very very well with women who are elder to me…

#10…
I wanted to be Lingerie store sales man, for a very very long time before I realized that most of the women who come in there call the sales man “Bhaiyya”… (Brother)

Anyone game for this on their blog too? let me know if you find this excitingly risky and write your secrets as well 😀

Does the title make you remember Khushwant Singh? Maybe… but this is my post… and these are the people I am associated with… so here we go…

Ma…. The ONE… if she is not there, I do not know what would happen to me… she is like oxygen to me… the one that I have been the most rude to, and the maximum number of times… the one who has always been around even though I could have been a better son to her… the one who I know will never ever leave me… My eyes are wet when I am writing this… but she deserves all the happiness in the world… anyday… and if I have to give up on my personal happiness for her, I would not even think twice…

Mrs. Rashmi Shandelye…
My English teacher in school… I was called her secretary; because of the attention I used to get from her… and that used to make a lot of kids around jealous… it was nice knowing her as a teacher… Though I do not remember much of that time, but I am sure she played an important role in helping me be a good student…

Mrs. Savita Laul…
The first female I cried for I guess… English teacher in class VIII… her husband got transferred to Powai, Mumbai… And she had to leave DAV, NOIDA… I remember buying a nice wall clock for her and giving it to her on her last day in NOIDA… we all students went to her place for a small farewell…

Mrs. Amrita Sharma…
English Teacher again… soooper doooper hott… I remember students getting into arguments on who is going to stand behind her seat for the group photograph in class X.

Vanja…
I was in a perfect teenage love with her ? used to look at her… watch her when she used to take the school bus, get down of it, used to get happy when she used to pass by me… but never said anything until one day, when I asked a friend to give her a “I love you” card while on our way back from the school.. He went to the front gate of the bus, and I was on the back gate… he gave her the card and got out of the front gate… And I ran away as soon as I was out of the back gate!!! Hehehe…

She was a senior… one year… her classmate then came to my house in an hours time… and asked me all stupid questions and all that crap… when I remember that day today.. It’s kinda strange and fun… we never actually were in a relationship… but still liked each other… strange first affair I had…

Mrs. Archana Deepak…
Physics teacher in XI-XII… people again were kinda jealous of the fact that I was liked by her… hehe… strange again… people were so damn shocked when I got 80+ in XII… and a lot of it I owe to the guidance from Archana Ma’am

Kanika…
Not much to talk about her… except that she was gave me more cards then anyone else in my life… A card to walk… a card to talk… a card to smile… phew… too many of them… was very difficult to hide all of those in books, notebooks, drawers etc etc…

Taru Vohra…
My love in college… the most beautiful girl I have ever been with… the simplest of them as well… at times I have terribly missed being with her after I broke up… even today I miss a person like her in my life… but then past is past… We started going around when I was in the second year of college and were together for over an year… we start going around because she was one helluva energy resource… always smiling… always happy…

Things changed after a few unfortunate things happened in our lives… she changed me changed… things did not look like working out… and finally we broke up… sad it was… I today feel that I should have handled that situation better… but then it’s over now…

Meghana Jain…
The best street play director, one of the best designers I know of… she was an integral part of my theatre community in college… always looking for new idea… open to thoughts and suggestions… and very very very high on creativity… People like her should always be there in ones life… they make a lot of difference…

Nimisha Bhagat…
She I guess has laughed the most on my stupid jokes… a wonderful singer and a gem from heart… she is still around when needed… I love to call her Choti… and she calls me Big B… and I love her for whatever she has been for me…

Bhumika Bhardwaj…
I had the longest perfect relationship with her in my life… close to about 3 years we were together and broke up because of family related issues…
The only person in my life who knew how to get that perfect delicate balance between friendship and relationship… someone who stayed a friend who loved me… and helped me be that too… just perfect… par Uncle God maybe has thought of better things for me…

Something that started with weekly Monday evening calls to daily 1630 calls to meeting once a week to loving each other… and staying the best of friends… seeing someone move from studying to struggling for a job to being ok and then successful was what we did together… Bhoomi, I thank you for all the smiles that you gave me… I remember our conversations about bhoomi and samandar being together always ?

Mrs. Bindu Krishnan…
Like a mom, like a guardian, like a friend, like a sister, like a mentor… she has been around taking care of the people in her team in Spectramind… she is still around… actively or otherwise… taking care of the kids who have grown both professionally and personally because of her…

Love you ma’am for all that I have learnt from you… and for all that you have to give us in our lives…

Maya Didi…
She knew I was bloody naughty the moment she started talking to me… and she and everyone at her place calls me Pineapple Pie because I love pineapple… she is a darling.. And one of the most beautiful women I have ever known… Didi you rock… you are the best…

Shikha…
My girlfriend in Hughes… I think that I rushed into this relationship because of my need for emotional support… and it obviously did not work out… while this relation was fantastic on a few fronts, it was a total mess on the others… I still feel that the conversations and more while we were in the car parking and the rain was pouring like hell on the roof were amazing… and I still feel that I did not accept her friends in my life… and a few more things that I know I went wrong with… this was one relationship which made me cry the most as well.. Which I am not ashamed of… I have experienced extreme pain, disappointment from myself and my partner… and I hope people do not rush into relations like I did…

I came out of this relationship very bitter, emotionally independent… and much stronger within then ever… and today I think I owe a lot to this particular period…

DVD…
Boss @ work… someone who told me what not to be, by being one of the not so good people I have worked with…

Neha…
She was one of the very first friends I made thru Orkut… and one of the very few people who is a perfect blend of beauty and brains… unfortunately for me, she had to get out of India for her research and it was just not possible for us to get together… She is one helluva practical girl…

Richa Bhardwaj…
One of the very few teenagers I know who talk sensibly and has a lot of brain… I love her for letting me be what I want to be… and has been appreciative at the smallest opportunity… one of the people I would like to see achieve great heights in her life… she plans to own a flower shop someday and I hope to learn about flowers from her as well…

Sayantani Das Gupta…
I call her Sayan, 10e, the all purpose woman and what not… my conversations just cannot get better then what they were like with Sayan… and today after she has gone out of India, I feel a need to talk to her more then anything else at times… it was so effortless, so profound, so much funny… so much everything that a conversation should be and can possibly be…

And lately, I have met some of the most wonderful women thru my friends, thru Orkut etc… Anku, Sandhya (I know her from Hughes though), Anjali, Bindiya and a few more who I am in the process of knowing more…

And the list above is for sure incomplete… there have been n number of people who have played a very important part in my life and have helped me be what I am today… Good or Bad, I owe a lot to them!!!!

God Bless Women, without them the world would have been such a mess!!!!

What do you think?

Is knowing someone who is quiet, difficult?

or

Is knowing someone who speaks a lot more difficult?

Most of us might feel that someone who speaks a lot is kinda easy to understand… but I personally feel that the talkative, outspoken, always happy kinds usually have things that they are hiding (intentionally or otherwise) from the world… there is a lot more to them then the words coming out of their mouths… and because they have this perfect envelope of their spoken words around themselves, it relatively harder to know them as a person…

A Zebra Crossing is called so not because any Zebras are crossing, but because the lines on the road look like the patterns on a Zebra….

And they are painted on the road, on the traffic lights so that people can walk on them when the light is red for traffic and they have to cross the road…

Now picture this…

The light is red…
There is a STOP LINE as well just next to the Zebra Crossing…
AND…

All the vehicles have stopped at the STOP LINE… none of them seem to be in a hurry… they are calm and waiting for the light to turn green… the pedestrians are walking across… and even after 30 seconds, the vehicles which includes some taxies, some two wheelers, a bus and a few rickshaws, are still there behind the stop line… just the way they stopped some half a minute back…

This was the scene in Kolkata on most of the traffic lights I crossed in Saturday and Sunday… Hats off to this behavior…

Sunday evening… back in Delhi… do I even need to tell you how the scene was…?

A big change was the attitude of the driver of the cab… while my cabbies in Kolkata were courteous and humble all the time… this guy did not know how to talk to customers…

Come a red light… and no one even probably knows that there is a STOP line… and they keep moving an inch ahead every second… and as soon as the red light turns green… they move like a bullet out of a gun… not bothering about anyone in front… God Save the pedestrians…

There used to be a no-tolerance zone on the road connecting Pragati Maidan to Mandi House Round-about… and I saw a lot of people behaving there… dunno what happened to it.. or the other no-tolerance zones in the city… do you know of any such zones in Delhi?

I am not saying that the traffic in Kolkata is any better then in Delhi… but the basic ethics of the road, at least how to behave on Traffic Lights is something that Delhi can learn from Kolkata…

A lot of times, I surprise myself by not speaking about whats troubling me… there was a time when I used to look around for support, to share, to depend, look for someone to listen to me when I was in a bad mad mood… but over the last couple of years, I think I have changed a lot in terms of my needs for emotional dependence… I feel its for my good, at the same time this leaves me a lot emotionless when it comes to the rest of the world…

Life is good… more like the journey in a boat… i can sit back and relax…. but thats not what I am… I am not the kinda person who can sit back and relax for a long time…

might be contd….

Journeys in boats can really get boring after a while… when you get onboard the first time, the movement of the boat is exciting… the way it moves over the waves is smooth too… and you might want to just sit on the edge enjoying the water… but after a while, it all gets too repetitive… not exciting, normal, routine… and that is when, you want to walk again, you want to browse through the traffic on the road too… or you want to change the boat or the water…

One of the other alternatives is…. Rafting… leaves you all wet and high on energy even after a tiring one on one with water….

After an evening of passionate making out, Aviral went to drop Nisha back to her PG…. both of them had always enjoyed being together, but for the last few occasions the talks had taken a back seat… infact both of them were now avoiding talking thinking that it might rather would lead to only arguments… but still they loved each other a li’il too much to stay away… maybe….

But this silence was for sure not comforting or making things better… so one of them had to speak up… Nisha did…

“I am not really happy these days…”

*Shit I have to drive back 30 kms and she had to pick up this time to talk…*”Why what happened?”

“Oh C’mon… don’t tell me that you do not know what is happening. Things have changed between us Aviral, they are not the same anymore… we do not talk much… the conversations have dried down… there is no excitement in your voice when I call, which happens most of the time… and you are telling me that you do not know what is happening?”

“I did not mean that, I am not prepared to get into a discussion right now…”

“Then when Aviral, we have been avoiding to talk about it for a long time now…”

“Umm… sometime later… but not today”…*I should not be doing this, this really needs a talk…* “Can we talk later please?”

“Suit yourself, but I do not think that later is going to come soon…. Let’s discuss it and get it over with”

“What do you mean get it over with? Nisha, what are you thinking?”

“I am thinking that it’s better to call everything off and live our lives, if communication is not happening…What do you think?”

*This is getting worse now…* “Look things are not that bad to tell you the truth… But it looks like we do not have that kinda chemistry anymore… Something is missing, I can’t understand what… but something is. I do not feel the need to call you anymore. Not that I do not want to talk, but then whenever I pick up the phone, there is nothing to talk about… I have started looking for a reason to talk to you, and in absence of these reasons, I do not have any words to share with you…”

“I know all this Aviral, but the question is: What should be done to take care of this? Are we drifting apart to never get together again?”

“May be…. I gotta go right now. Let’s talk later.”

And the good night hug, which was more like a formality…. and the day, is over… has something of this sort happened with you ever? I guess it has… it happened with me not in its entirety though…

But then what do you do with relationships that loose the sizzle after a while… this “after a while” can be a week, a month, a year or whatever… but i think a phase like this always comes in a relationship…

What would you have done if you were Nisha or Aviral?

I am really angry over a few things I have been watching over the last few days/weeks…

~ All hell broke loose when the Govt. Officials were sealing property in East Delhi… The people were out on the streets, damaging all the public properly they could lay their hands on… Wonderful display of ownership for your own stuff and a pathetic display of ownership for the city/state/country you live in… And most of these guys who I saw on television breaking the cars, dividers etc looked like the young boys who were doing it just for fun… afterall, why would anyone laugh their fucking ass out when they are throwing stones on a Fire Truck!!! Some bunch of Assholes… and to top it all, the local politicians were feeling more then proud when they said that it was not the people from their constituency who did it… they were “bad elements” from outside!!! Ha CRAP!!!

~ We are still struggling to get Bharti Yadav back in India and we are still struggling to prove the guilty, guilty in the Jessica Lal Case, and did I forget the Priyadarshini Matto Case? and till the time all the damn News Channels would continue making money by showing their exclusif coverage or the letters, the tapes, the interviews etc etc etc… And did they forget to run a SMS contest for any of these cases? I guess they did…

~ The best of all cases IS: The INDIAN Parliament is attacked, and the person who is apparently guilty of the act is given a death sentence… phew… some judgments are passed… and then what happens!!! One entire state along with its politicians stand up against the death sentence and request the President for a softer sentence… the people in Kashmir take on the streets, they throw stones at the police, and there is a bandh in the city!!! Why because they want to save someone who wanted to kill a few people in the Parliament… sometimes I really think they the militants should not have been killed, they should have been allowed to enter the Lok Sabha and the Rajya Sabha, and kill 100% of the so called Netas…. this is all so disgusting!!!

Ok… for people who did not know why I was not around:
I was fighting a battle with Viral Fever the entire last week, and am back in office today 🙂

And for everyone…
I am feeling much better after a hectic resting schedule… I get so tired of getting this rest thing!!!

Have a ton to write about today and in the next few days!!! Come back for more if you have managed to read this post!!!