One of my friends wrote a very interesting post sometime back about being alone… and loving it…I guess I fall into that category of people who have been on their own without really needing anyone around, for a long time time now…

When mom talks about getting married, I ask her why should I get married? and she would tell me, that its good to have someone around you… to come back to.. and my answer, and trust me an honest one, for about 2 years now, was I don’t need anyone to come back home to… I am happy this way… i don’t have to answer any questions, I live my life one day at a time, with ofcourse some plans to buy the new camera lenses, or how would i manage to get the Pajero I have my eyes on for a very long time… but then this is where and how it has been… a few close friends have also questioned me about this so called full of myself, selfish and insensitive attitude… but then again… i said so what.. this is my life and I decide how i want to live it.. not anyone else…

oh.. and by the way I manage to fix the rear speakers in my car today… the rear speakers had some wires loose… and it took me about an hour to take everything out and then clean the wires up and put everything back in… i mean just the wires… but it is silk smooth again… and the bass tube is back in… i can now reopen the discotheque inside my car :D… oh.. and yes you are welcome for a drive around…

par no smoking and daru inside the car please… its a restricted zone…

ok.. back to what i was talking about… so my life has been revolving around a few things for a few years… work… photography, which i started taking seriously sometime back, my car and parents… thats it… a few friends have been around during all these times when i have not talked to them for weeks at length… or told them about what i have been thinking and whats happening at my side of the phone, or the screen or whatever…

and today i thought… what if i am thinking about only myself when i am needed? what if i don’t even figure that out that i should have been around someone who was looking at me… not for anything else but for just being there… what if i loose someone because i needed time off from everything when they should have had my time? scary… not for the whole world, but when it comes to a few ppl i care for…

i guess i am on my way to do a balancing act… from one extreme towards a better ground… and reaching an equilibrium…

oh.. and thanks to the duck in the picture.. who gave me the idea 🙂 she is a darling…